I Thought I Knew What Was Next, And Then I Went To Dinner

 

"When are you going to quit sitting on your calling?" Those were the quickly spoken words ushered into my ears with a surprised look returning to the question bearer. Sitting in a not so out of the way booth, in a busy Nashville restaurant, the first Friday in December.  I was surrounded by first date couples, Christmas gatherings, clinking glasses of wine- and questions. But they weren't just any questions. They were soul stirring, spirit prodding questions. "Excuse me?” I whispered while trying to decide between a sip of wine or water.  Certainly I had heard something different. But then the unchanged question landed a second time and pierced the bubble holding in the salty sweetness that began dripping out of my eyes. This could not be happening here but, yes it was. 

Hearing prophetic words from my sweet, trusted friend utterly punctured my heart into a life altering state of which I have not recovered and will not recover! That question uncovered the buried coals of a fire laden purpose that until that moment had been deprived of oxygen. The previous year I had written and released my first book and was traveling many places speaking about the Father’s love and His undeniable work in my life.  Having completed the painful and difficult assignment of revealing the raw truth of my life journey so far, I thought I was in the place the Lord wanted me.  Little did I know that He was using this nurturing mother, who sat across from me, to unravel my world with haste.  She continued, explaining that Holy Spirit had told her I thought the book was it, that the book was all of what the Lord had for me to do, but in fact the book was just the beginning. It was the introduction.  Holding her hand up as if she were holding something in her palm she made visual that the book was one piece, yet there were so many other pieces surrounding it, but that my focus had remained on this one “thing” and was blinding me to the rest of the purpose. “He is sending you in to get His daughters. He is sending you into the ditches and into the darkness - where you once resided. He is calling you to be a priest to the broken hearted, an Isaiah 61 priest, an unconventional priest that no one sees coming.”

In one long, tortuous, question rendering sentence the ashes were whisked away, the simmering coals were exposed and fresh oxygen reached them.  My spirit came alive and the tears and aching within began manifesting as I tried to ingest scallops and wine, but could only focus on this fire that was igniting.  It took three days to gather words to explain to my husband and then in two successive weeks, using broken hearted women to confirm the unknown words spoken by my sweet Godly sister, a new purpose unfolded before me as my Father revealed plans I felt ill prepared for.  It was the beginning of something new and my spirit was thirsty for water, I was thirsty for Jesus and His word.  My soul became saturated as I sought what this was that over the last few months He has hastily rolled out like a piece of scroll.  

So, I ask you today: Do you think you know what you are called to do?  If you do think you know, are you willing to let your eyes and heart consider that there is more than what you see before you?  Are you willing to gaze upon the Father’s heart in prayer and ask Him, so that you do not sit on your calling?  It will radically transform your relationship with Him and your life-if only you are willing.  I pray for each of you that read this that the Spirit of the Lord will so overcome you that sitting on your calling will no longer be an option!

Sarah McKinnis

Sarah McKinnis-Author & Speaker. Sarah lives as a daughter of Abba Father, devoted to an imperfect life of harmony with her husband Adam on a small farm in Birchwood, TN.  A compassionate soul with a candid voice, Sarah uses the turbulence of her own story to facilitate peace and love to those experiencing relational brokenness.  Her words through the Holy Spirit ignite the truth of hope, mercy, and unending grace in Christ for others.  In the fearless honesty, humor, and wisdom of her writing and speaking, as well as in the authenticity of her relationships, she imparts truth in love.  Sarah heals in a world that is suffering and has recently been tasked with the call to reach into the darkness of sex trafficking to rescue women and children by pointing them to Jesus’ genuine love, redemption and restoration.  www.mygifttogod.com

 

Sarah McKinnis

Author and Speaker. Sarah lives as a daughter of Abba Father, devoted to an imperfect life of harmony with her husband Adam on a small farm in Birchwood, TN.  A compassionate soul with a candid voice, Sarah uses the turbulence of her own story to facilitate peace and love to those experiencing relational brokenness.  Her words through the Holy Spirit ignite the truth of hope, mercy, and unending grace in Christ for others.  In the fearless honesty, humor, and wisdom of her writing and speaking, as well as in the authenticity of her relationships, she imparts truth in love.  Sarah heals in a world that is suffering and has recently been tasked with the call to reach into the darkness of sex trafficking to rescue women and children by pointing them to Jesus’ genuine love, redemption and restoration.